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Apr 03

Dream Jobs

In the beginning part of 2010 I was kind of adrift. I’d moved to New York from tiny Ocala, FL to get away from… just everything. I felt like I needed a new start but I didn’t know what that start was. I was still doing my same job on a career path that I’d been feeling trapped by and I didn’t know what I wanted to do or who I wanted to (or could) be.

I happened to see that McSweeney’s, a site I loved, was running a contest to find new columnists. On a whim, I decided to enter.

I fought with myself over the entry and put it off to the last minute, in classic Scott fashion, but I forced myself to submit what would become the first installment of the Dream Jobs column, So You Wanted to Be a Marine Biologist…

The summer came and went and I’d all but forgotten about it until one kind of shitty day in September, I was boarding a plane at JFK to go to Chicago for a weekend conference, and I checked my e-mail one final time, and saw an email from John Warner saying they’d loved my submission and I was a new McSweeney’s columnist. It was…shocking. I called my best friend slash most complicated relationship ever, knowing she was also on her way to Chicago, and told her the news. That night we met some more of my friends in Chicago and celebrated.

That was the day I decided to be a comedy writer, which was a long-held dream of mine. I didn’t know how I’d do it or what to do next, but I knew it was a major turning point in my life.

Throughout the year I was a columnist, I experienced every up and down that decision could spawn. I hated everything I wrote. I wanted to quit. I wanted to disappear. I wanted to have never taken this on. I thought I was a terrible writer. I thought I wasn’t funny. I thought this was another stupid dream by a stupid guy who was 33 and should have stopped dreaming.

Emails came in from all over the world. People found me on Twitter. The response was overwhelming. it wasn’t a hundred a day or even 10 a week but it was enough that I gained some confidence and some much-needed external validation. People would ask me if they could reprint a column in their blog. A guy in Russia ran one of them in his actual print magazine.

By the time I wrote So You Wanted to be A Computer Programmer… I knew I was done with my old career. I no longer wanted to be on that path. I wanted to be on this new path. 

I quit my job on New Year’s Eve 2010 and spent nearly all of 2011 just trying to figure things out. I tried to write a novel but couldn’t muster the discipline. I wrote a screenplay for the first time and fell in love with writing screenplays. I found UCB and took a sketch class with Melinda Taub (another pivotal moment) and met people I’m still friends with and fell in love with the UCB community. I did stand-up for the first time.

Fast-forward to now. I still do some software stuff to pay the rent, because I’m not being paid to do comedy and writing yet. Not enough, anyway. But I definitely feel like I’m on my way to something, and that the something I’m on my way to is by definition going to be a Dream Job, and none of it would have happened if I hadn’t taken a shot at that McSweeney’s new columnist contest and pitched a column about, appropriately, Dream Jobs.

A few years ago, my editor at McSweeney’s told me I should package the column into a book when it was done. It was always on my mind but I never pulled the trigger on it for some stupid reason (fear, always fear). But I finally did, and now it’s on Amazon and Nook, and I couldn’t feel better about it. Feel free to check it out, or don’t, but I wanted to tell the story because writing about dream jobs that turn out to be nightmares started as a cathartic release from my tailspin, and ended up being the catalyst that changed everything about my life.

Dream Jobs on Amazon Kindle 
Dream Jobs on Barnes & Noble Nook

Mar 28

Out of Context Notebook Entries

"At the end the guy is a killbot"

I bet whatever I was thinking this would mean to me later was pretty fun.

Feb 04

Privileges

I’ve worked in high-tech for 15 years. By and large, white guys run the show.

I’m trying to work in comedy. By and large, white guys run the show.

In both places, I see a lot of white guys, who are otherwise “good guys”, who on a one-on-one basis would never exclude someone differently gendered or of a different race, take up arguments that are fundamentally counter to the way they lead their lives.

Takes one to know one, to be sure, because I’ve been that guy as well in the past, and I’m working to not be, but I’m not above admitting that sometimes my brain still goes there. Everyones been conditioned in some way and it takes work to reprogram the brain.

This is just a note to remind myself and people that look like me, (genetically, anyway), that a big part of white male privilege is that it’s easy to take the stance that “we shouldn’t argue and fight about every gender and race thing” and that “everything should be a meritocracy”.

Because we (white guys) DON’T have to argue and fight about every gender and race thing. That’s the privilege. We can ignore it and we’ll be fine. 

Because most things ARE a meritocracy for us (white guys). And while there’s bias in every system, and maybe one type of white guy seems to get further ahead in some places than another type of white guy, we’re all still automatically swimming in the pool of consideration. We never have to jump into the pool. We were waterbirthed there. This pool metaphor is weird but I feel good about it.

We SHOULDN’T have to argue and fight about race and gender because it shouldn’t be an issue. But it is an issue. So, we have to work at it.

Yes, things improve here and there. In the 15 years I’ve been in tech there has been so much progress on the women-in-tech (and women CEOs/CTOs) issue. But there’s still a lot of work to do.

If things get better and you stop working at it, then things stop getting better. That’s a law of physics. All systems tend toward entropy. That’s why we need to care and continue to bring issues to light and work at it.

The fact that a movie like Bridesmaids or The Heat makes as much news for being helmed by women as it does for being funny is a reason we need to keep working on it.

The fact that every story about new Microsoft CEO Satya Nadella is compelled to point out that he’s Indian means we have to keep working on it.

The fact that when Sasheer got on SNL, the story was as much (if not more) about her being a black woman as it was about her being one of the most hilarious, hardworking people any of us knows… we need to keep working on it.

Open mic hosts still intro women comics with comments about how pretty they are, or going out of their way to make sure everyone knows she stands out because of her gender. We need to keep working on it.

If we (everyone) really lived in that equalitopian (made it up) meritocracy that we (white guys) think we live in, those stories would all be written differently. I’m not saying it’s bad to highlight things, I’m saying that we’re not at “Mission Accomplished” until it’s common enough that a black woman is on SNL or a non-white-guy helms a major company that it’s not the whole story.

And since we’re (white guys) the ones with the most influence, we (white guys) hinder progress every time we (you get it) say we live in a meritocracy that we forget only includes us. If we want it to be true, we can’t ignore that it isn’t.

Funny is funny. Good coder is good coder. These are true things. But it’s easy to forget that not everyone gets to get judged on these criteria, and only these criteria, without having to claw through a thick veil of biases first. 

These are thoughts I have after reading a bunch of things in the last couple of days. They’re just my not-that-well-informed thoughts.

Jan 09

George Miller is attached to direct

George Miller is attached to direct

Jan 07

Best of the Seinfeld AMA

http://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/1ujvrg/jerry_seinfeld_here_i_will_give_you_an_answer

This:

And this:

Anser #2:

Good advice:

Nov 21

Ramen

Ramen.

Ra-men.

RAAAAAAAmen.

Noodles and beef, you gotta believe. It was spicy like I asked.

Jane, get me off this crazy thing. Called lunch.

Nov 12

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